Secret of My Love

This previous year, I have learned how to love myself with all my heart. Being alone is not  a fear for me anymore . At times, I enjoy immersing myself in tranquility and peace of being alone. I found myself having "friendship" but  end up ill at ease in the past. Without sufficient understanding of myself, relationships was my everything, my centre of daily life. I would sacrifice my own needs for the other person and consider things for the other person before I did for myself, which is not the best thing to do because others would not realise or appreciate. Disappointment and negative feelings haunted me. However, there's nobody else to blame as these were all caused by myself for not truly loving myself. I decided to change, and my choice was right.

I like accompaniment of great friends, but I also enjoy freedom. I go where ever I wish to go to, eat whatever I desire and do whatever I feel  like doing. It is my time. I enjoy it. A few of my classmates might have noticed that I am a little different from who I was in the past two years. Some noticed that I started dressing myself up especially during weekends and asked if there's anything for them to gossip about. (Gossip, is that a healthy hobby? =P) Once my classmates even thought I was some one's (from our class)new girlfriend from other faculty when they saw me. Yes I am different now,because I found my true self. Maybe not completely yet, but I can feel my energy and confident springing up from within again. I will never throw away my self-esteem for somebody else anymore.  

What I am doing now is easy but has greatly improved my well being. Just enrich and love myself well. You can make it too. You just have to appreciate yourself first before you appreciate somebody else who are worth to be appreciated. We come to this world alone, we will leave this world alone. Being alone is nothing to fear of. Some might think that others have the ability to provide them with happiness but remember, one day they might also take it away, because it belong to others. So why not create them yourself?